The word CONSUMPTION is often used as an old fashioned way of describing someone with Tuberculosis.
In the past, tuberculosis has been called consumption, because it seemed to consume people from within, with a bloody cough, fever, pallor, and long relentless wasting.-wikipedia
and while most of us think of images of Little House on the Prairie or Deadwood when the word consumption is used, I would like to suggest that it is alive and well and sadly, taking its toll in a new form with special needs parents everywhere.
I know I have this new form of consumption.
Carter has been on and off bed rest for close to a year fighting a wound in his leg that appears to have super bugs attached to it because nothing is killing them. This past year our whole family has been consumed by this.
Special Needs Consumption is easy to contract and difficult, if not impossible, to cure. You are often first struck with it the first time you hold your babies hand through something horrific. The first time you whisper ‘it’s ok’ when you know it might not be.
Sometimes SNC (Special Needs Consumption) goes into remission. Yes, there are those brief times that you don’t think about your childs condition, their needs, their appointments, their schedules, their equipment….but these remission times rarely last long. Consumption is a powerful thing and will bring you back to reality quickly.
But what can parents suffering with SNC do to bolster their own strength? That is personal to each afflicted member, my friend Tammy takes long walks around the grocery store alone, my friend Laura took a huge leap of faith and decided to go on a professional writing retreat, and me, I am going to meet a giant mouse in FL this weekend to work and play.
I’m feeling guilty about taking off two weeks after Carters surgery. But yet, his 1 week check up yesterday went amazingly well. There is nothing I can do for him other than entertain him while he is on bed rest and quite frankly, after a year of that, I am not that entertaining. But through the guilt I see that if I don’t put my SNC into remission for a few days, I might drive off a cliff soon. I know everyone here will be fine without me, they always are and I would never go if I thought anything might be even slightly wrong. So, I need to kick this Consumptions butt for a little bit and let myself heal!